Hole in my heart

Bad day at work. Confusing, fucked up and tired.... Took a vacation off tom..... went to the spa, had a foot massage and no matter how my masseuse tried to converse with me my mind was soaring....

I miss him. I wonder how he really is. I'm so empty and the only thing that cheers me up would be memories of him. The way he laughs and the way he just makes me feel good....

Tomorrow, I hope I'm better. Have to go to a baptism and then do my afternoon gym.